I’m riding this fckn roller coaster, it’s not fun.
There are times I want to throw in the towel, but I can hear Babe say no.
It’s tiring being asked ‘You ok?’ ‘Hey you miss him?’ ‘Do you feel lonely?’ ‘Do you feel him?’ ‘Are you better now?’ ‘Hey when are you coming back?’
The old Maria would flip them the bird and tell them to fck off.
This Maria, the one that Babe changed, it’s fckn hard. I stay quiet, giving them a stare, and my stupid eyes turn glassy. Which by the way, I fckn hate. I do not like to hold things in but I don’t want to be harsh because of the way I’m feeling at this moment. My mind would always speak out before I knew what I was going to say. There are times I can feel my rudeness wanting to come out.
Am I ok? - No, but I say yes just so you can shut up
Do I miss him? - Every fckn second
Do I feel lonely? - Frankly, no I don’t
Do I feel him? - Yes I do
Am I better now? - Fck no
When am I coming back? - The happy Maria that was so happy with life is never coming back
Someone at work said ‘I hope the old Maria doesn’t come back. She was a total bitch’
I feel her sometimes.
Life took away the love of my life. At the moment all I have is blank pages to look at.
~ Maria G
There are times I want to throw in the towel, but I can hear Babe say no.
It’s tiring being asked ‘You ok?’ ‘Hey you miss him?’ ‘Do you feel lonely?’ ‘Do you feel him?’ ‘Are you better now?’ ‘Hey when are you coming back?’
The old Maria would flip them the bird and tell them to fck off.
This Maria, the one that Babe changed, it’s fckn hard. I stay quiet, giving them a stare, and my stupid eyes turn glassy. Which by the way, I fckn hate. I do not like to hold things in but I don’t want to be harsh because of the way I’m feeling at this moment. My mind would always speak out before I knew what I was going to say. There are times I can feel my rudeness wanting to come out.
Am I ok? - No, but I say yes just so you can shut up
Do I miss him? - Every fckn second
Do I feel lonely? - Frankly, no I don’t
Do I feel him? - Yes I do
Am I better now? - Fck no
When am I coming back? - The happy Maria that was so happy with life is never coming back
Someone at work said ‘I hope the old Maria doesn’t come back. She was a total bitch’
I feel her sometimes.
Life took away the love of my life. At the moment all I have is blank pages to look at.
~ Maria G