Yeah the idea of getting drunk never made sense to me. Wine tastes good, cider feels good, and mixed drinks are enjoyable. Why waste the money and flavors by just indulging till you vomit or get buzzed? You can't taste anything anymore.
That's kinda like having a cigar then following it immediately with another, your mouth already has the flavor masked from the smoke particles, tongue layering, and tar... How can you argue you can taste through that? It just spoils the enjoyment.
Good luck with your issues, talking with friends in person can help, perhaps over a cigar.