So tonight I went out for a friends birthday. I had a great time saw some friends I havent seen in a few years. I have not had a drink in two years, untill tonight. I enjoyed myself a little too much though. I have been a recovering alchohalic for around two yrs. At the end of the night I fell like I could control myself, but I know I can not. If there are any recoveries here in our communituy, am I just lying to myself or can I control myself? I am hoping that I can, or am I looking down a one way street that will lead me back to wear I was in my life two years ago. Thanks to any of you that will weigh in on this question. :dunno:
First drink in 2 yrs
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I'm a recovering addict, Gambling was my addiction. Were addicts the very nature of our disease is that we have no control over the addiction we can only learn to manage and control the urge to use. you have 2 yrs no easy feat and something to be commended, but when we fall back into addiction it's an one way express trip back to where we were before we got sober. Remember one minute at a time, leads to one hour, to one day to one lifetime of sobriety.
ciggy
"TommyBoy"
My sister has this addiction. She sadly has fallen off the wagon a coulpe time this last year and just about two weeks ago. It's a very hard thing to recover from but you have to stay strong, tell yourself your better than that, and avoid thoes situations that put you in temptations way. If there your true friends they would not want you there to begin with. Realize there not being uncarring for not inviting you but the other way around. A small sacrifice for a larger reward. I wish my sister would get this.
I hope you're different but the truth is recovering alcoholics who fall off the wagon usually end up where they were before they decided they needed to sober up. Good luck hope you make the decision that is right for you and your family
First off, Congrats on 2 years... Like Going postal my addictions was gambling. I was also an inpatient drug and Alcohol counselor in the military.
If you were ever in a program to help with your recovery you not doubt were told that you could never drink again. You will have times when you do, but you need to realize real quick that it will put you right back where you started.
The reason us addicts think we can control it is because we are in recovery and can think straight. We feel like it is possible to control it. The problem is, when we are back to our vice, we lose all reason and it controls us again..
Listen to the good brothers here, learn from this, and continue on for another long period of sobriety. May it last the rest of your life!
I am also I'm recovery. Just passed the 7 year mark on Jan 8th. As for being able to control your drinking, I don't know you or your past but I'm willing to bet you're going to end up worse than when you decided to quit. At least that's what I usually see happen. I was told that once you are a pickle, you can never be a cucumber again. Either way, don't beat yourself up over it, the most natural thing an addict wants to do is use.
I'm recovering as well and quit about 6 years ago. I went a solid 4 without a drink and relapsed back into it. It was for about 4 nights and the first I thought I was in control, then I got into a fist fight with a commissioned officer. The 2nd time was a year after that and I ended up hurting a lot of my friends feelings that night. Each time started off with, "Well enough time has passed and I'm older and more mature as well so I will be ok. This first night was and then it went down hill. Keep in mind all the feelings you had after waking up after a bender and any people you might have effected. My best advice and stay strong brother.
Stay strong BOTL, I'm not a recovering alcoholic but my dad is, I've seen him start and stop many times. But he has been sober now for 31 yrs, so you made it 2 yrs now make it 29 more.
Soundwave13
BoM Feb 2010
Over 11 years here. PM me anytime.
I think you answered your own question though. Often the danger is that degradation & deprivation doesn't come with the first drink, fooling one to believe that they are beyond the obsession & compulsion to abuse. The 'disease' never forgot how to ride that bicycle & now it has some catching up to do...
I'd suggest getting to a meeting ASAP & raising your hand.
I think you answered your own question though. Often the danger is that degradation & deprivation doesn't come with the first drink, fooling one to believe that they are beyond the obsession & compulsion to abuse. The 'disease' never forgot how to ride that bicycle & now it has some catching up to do...
I'd suggest getting to a meeting ASAP & raising your hand.
I want to say thanks to all of you for the support. I did answer my own question last night when I wrote the post. The answer this morning is that I know and will not have the relapse because I know right of the bat that I will loose this battle. Thanks to you all for the encouragement. This shows me how great BOTL truly is.
Not sure of the situation that night but if any of your friends were putting some pressure on for you to drink those are the ones to stay away from. If some were discouraging it those you keep. If it was on your own, you need to work on your inner strengths. Congrats on the two years and good luck on continued success!
Yep, sounds liike you answered your own question. Glad to know you realize it. This disease is cunning, baffling and powerful. Over 10 years here and today my life is so much better than it was while I was drinking I don't even miss it, except when my head starts trying to kill me again, and I think "I can handle it now". Which, thankfully, is not very often these days. Find some sober people to hang out with and have fun in sobriety.
Thanks for your honesty and awareness -- the 1st step.
darkman
BoM May '10
I just passed 15 years last week. While I am certain that I am a different, more mature person than the 20 something that loved getting drunk, it is not nearly worth the risk if I am wrong. My life has been blessed w children, wife, and 6 or so cigars. None of which I possessed before I quit.
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Thegreekone
Banned
addictions are cunning, baffling and powerful. The other thing people forget is that they are PATIENT. Their insidious and pernicious nature are what make them spiritual killers.
Don't beat yourself up; use what you learned about yourself and your disease to do the next right thing. While you have been sober, which is tremendous and valuing that is the first step, sobriety does not necessarily equate recovery. YOUR disease has been outside doing push-ups, and WAITING. Recovery and sobriety protection are inextricably linked. Get to a meeting, reconnect and get a sponsor. I am so happy you wrote and aren't making this smaller than it is. Keeping yourself safe and free of temptation is critical right now.
Keep trudging, brother! :thumbsup:
Don't beat yourself up; use what you learned about yourself and your disease to do the next right thing. While you have been sober, which is tremendous and valuing that is the first step, sobriety does not necessarily equate recovery. YOUR disease has been outside doing push-ups, and WAITING. Recovery and sobriety protection are inextricably linked. Get to a meeting, reconnect and get a sponsor. I am so happy you wrote and aren't making this smaller than it is. Keeping yourself safe and free of temptation is critical right now.
Keep trudging, brother! :thumbsup:
