It's official guys, today is my first birthday, one year sober! Never in a million years could I even imagine this. Went through some ups and downs, but never picked up. I read steps 10 & 11 every day. "What we have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition". AA really works, it does! I don't even think about it anymore, BUT, I still have to do my homework everyday, and I'll be going to meetings for the rest of my life. Meetings have become like church now. I really love the book studies.
What a second chance I've been given.
Recently, I've had to adjust my schedule to get my kids on the bus (I go to bed at 2 am). What would have been a resentment is now a blessing as I get to see them every morning. Recognizing and praying about my character defects within myself has given me a completely new outlook on life. The hate and bitterness is gone, and when it does come up, I address it quickly (why am I mad, what is my part?). To any new person reading this, know that I was you at one time, and there is hope. You don't need to be a dry drunk (not drinking, but hating life). It's amazing to go from wishing I would die to "what can I pack into the stream of life?"
I'm always here to chat if anyone needs to, and I've officially dealt with that first year which is full of doubt, misunderstanding, and later self confidence (yeah, that's a bad one when you think "you" got this).
Happy Friday everyone. Smoking a pardon 1926 tonight given to me by my good friend
@ZippoGeek